Friday, August 17, 2012
There have only been a few times in my life when I marked the passage of time by weeks. I did each time I was pregnant; counting the weeks as my belly expanded with the new life growing inside. Each week I anticipated how my life would be forever changed. It was a time of anxiety and happiness.
Now, with the passing of the life of my dear, sweet spouse I find myself counting the weeks again. Each week I anticipate how my life will be forever changed. It is a time of anxiety and sadness. And yet there is also happiness to be found.
It may seem strange to hear a new widow say that she is happy. But there really are times of happiness amongst the sadness and grief. Those happy times come when I realize how truly fortunate I am. I was blessed to marry to a very good man. He loved me and believed in me. He was a true partner in every sense of the word. He was my life partner and my blog partner. My husband was by my side as I purchased a digital camera so that I could begin this blog. He was there to help me build and make my plans and dreams a reality. Even when I swore him to silence, telling him that I didn’t want anyone to know about my blog because I wanted it to be something I did anonymously, he would secretly tell others because he couldn’t contain his pride in me. I recently went into where my husband worked and a young man asked about my blog. He said that my husband would always showoff my projects. That’s the kind of man he was. That’s the kind of man he still is. I have no doubt that he is saddened that I have taken such a long hiatus from blogging. I have felt his presence nudging me on just as he always did.
So my dear blog friends, today, twenty weeks after the sudden passing of my sweetheart, I return to blogging. My life has been forever changed. It may be noticeable in my future posts. But, in honor of Mr. Joys of Home and because I truly have missed you my friends, I am back.
I express to you my immense gratitude for your thoughts and prayers. My family and I are indeed lifted by you! Thank you for your comments and emails. I read and cherished each one and express my appreciation to you for taking the time to write. Please forgive me for not responding. I needed to take a break from blogging and emails to adjust and re-evaluate my life. I am grateful for your love, concern, and patience.
With the deepest of appreciation,